newness.

i know i posted something yesterday.
but hey i missed typing already.

so as some of you may know, tanner and i are using our town home as our first rental property.

we are still moving out of it and into our new apartment.

there is something about having two people that love each other in a small space.
we've been at the apartment for a week and i already feel like our love has grown stronger.
i see this quote all the time on pinterest... and its so so true.

"love grows best in little houses with fewer walls to separate. where you eat and sleep so close together you can't help but communicate. if we had more room think of all we'd miss. love grows best in little houses just like this."

tanner and i have been married for 4 years next month.

i feel like we are more in love than ever.
we wake up with gratitude.

to be so close.
to be so in love.
to be so happy.

tanner and i have been through a lot the past 5 years that we've been together.
big decisions.
buying a house.
owning a gym.
moving out of the house.
still owning the gym.
fights.
not communicating effectively.

we are finally understanding what each of us needs to feel loved.

to be honest.
i love all of the clients that he trained.
but he was giving all of his love to you guys.
which is what i love about him.

but he was so exhausted from giving everyone else his love... there wasn't any left for me.
he did what he thought was best.
worked his ass off and provided for us financially.

one thing women i feel like don't talk about is the emotional part of a relationship that they need.
i need to be needed.

there is this one look that tanner gives me now.
its like i'm the only person in the whole entire world.
its completely exhilarating.
that look makes me feel loved.
even the way we kiss is different... better.

last night it was like we were just married, i was so super excited for him to come home from work.
you could even say i was nervous.
i had butterflies.

isn't this the love and romance i have always dreamed of?
absolutely.
i am the happiest i've ever been. ever.

also.
honesty.
be true to yourself.

i never let anyone "in"
i love people yes.
but i never got too close.

thats what tanner needs.
me to let him in.
i've never loved anyone fully.
always one foot on the ground.

with him, i can finally jump in with both feet.
i'm not scared anymore.
we are in it forever.

i can be true.
i can be authentic.
i can be crazy.
i can be wild.
i can be sweet.
i can be anything i want with him.
ah.

how i got lost...
i'm not sure.
i'm just so lucky that tanner saved me.
i can fall apart in his arms and know that he will put me back together no matter how long it takes.

i'd do the same for him.
i'll be there in his darkest nights.
i'll run away with him.
i'll always find him if he ever hides.
i'll rescue him ten million times if it means that he will always be mine.

life couldn't be more perfect.

xo.
morgan.

happiness.

soo.
yes i've been MIA for a minute.
i've been evaluating my life.
what do i need to make me happy??

well i'm absolutely certain of two things.
being a wife.
being a mother.

but what else?

being financially stable i guess?
i mean really.
have you ever thought about what you need in your life to make you happy?

i know a lot of it for me...

well wait.
lets stop for a second.




i'm going to be honest here.
like real honest.
so if you want to know... keep reading.
if not... stop now.
you may look at me in a different light.
which is ok.
i am being authentic and true to who i really am.

tanner challenged me to figure out what i wanted my life to look like.

so i did.

of course if you sit down and think about it, all the material things come to mind first.

pretty house.
pretty hair.
pretty clothes.
pretty cars.

so i thought. and thought. and thought.

still i want all of those things.
but what about my day?
what do i want that to look like?
i challenge my clients to do this sometimes.

so what does it look like?

well i LOVE mornings.
i wake up before tanner. everyday.
so i imagine getting up and making breakfast and prepping the families food for the day.
i imagine getting everyones clothes all put together and ready.
then i make tea and wake tanner up with ten million kisses.
we go sit on our porch and talk.
about anything because we aren't in a hurry.

when tanner goes to work,
thats when i get my workout in.
yoga & lifting.

when our kids are little i imagine taking them to the park and discovering new things everyday.
teaching them.
loving them.
creating memories.
soaking in every moment of their littleness. :)

i'll run errands.

then. i'll come home.
sit in my office and work on my blog.
and put together a list of events that i am coordinating for people.
(this is a new thing that i'm into.)
i want to plan events.
baby showers, birthdays, weddings, bridal showers.
anything.
as long as they get to be pretty. ;)

then my cute husband will come home.
i'll greet him with ten million kisses.
(so will the kids, when we have them.)

we will make dinner together while we drink.
just a couple of drinks of course.

then we sit.
and eat dinner and catch up on the day.

maybe after we watch a movie or go on a walk.

then. after the kids are put to sleep...
we will meditate.
and have time alone.
mostly just staring into each others eyes because let me tell you i can totally get lost in tanners.


and basically thats it.
thats my day.
tanner said to me
"i feel like you want to live a princess life."

but thats the thing.
i love taking care of people.
especially the ones that i love.
so why not have it all?

i know this is super mushy and lovey but its ok.

sometimes you just need that.

basically...
i am in love with love.
and pretty little things.

we make life hard.

take a step back and think about what you really want.

dream again.

xo.
morgan.