who cares?!

hi again!!!

so here is what i discovered today.

1. i LOVE talking. 

2. i LOVE writing.

3. i am SUPER busy and i LOVE it.

4. i am EXCITED about well.. everything.

you already know how much i love the people in my life.

well i also love the relationships i have been able to build and rekindle throughout the past 6 months or so. here is the thing, i just decided i was SICK of hiding. i was hiding everything, i didn't have a voice! i wasn't being authentic with the people in my life. i felt like everyone would judge me... and i realized... WHO CARES?! no matter what you do people are going to judge you. i'm totally ok with it.. because really i want to be happy!!! so do what makes you happy!!

i am happy when i am able to share with other people what i have been learning about myself and my views on the world.  you know what is great? you can take it or leave it. i'm TOTALLY ok with that, and i will LOVE you for who you are anyways.

one of my cute friends said she loves how positive i always am. i do absolutely try to be positive 98% of the time. i used to be a complainer... and man was that a DRAG! ha. 

but i also think that all of us are 100% human and we will have our down days. 

thats totally ok too... so i want you guys to see some of my not so positive days also, i will be sure to write about them. if you don't like it, too bad so sad. ;)

ok... so let's be honest. i have a lot on my plate at the moment.

a lot of GOOD things. i have my job working with kids, they are amazing and seriously so sweet. its challenging don't get me wrong. that is absolutely what i needed in a job in order to be fulfilled. some days it isn't all coloring hello kitty and rainbows! i have really hard days, where they can scream in my face for up to 45 minutes. you know what? it is ok, i get through it and it is a teaching opportunity. i'm extremely thankful for this job everyday. as hard and mentally draining as it is, knowing that i am CHANGING these families lives is totally worth every minute.

i also started selling herbalife more. i am loving coaching adults. so far all of my clients are women. i LOVE empowering them to be the super heroes that they are. these women are so strong and amazing, they don't even realize it yet. i love seeing their results. not just the weight loss, but the growth as a person. there is something about empowering women that makes me SO happy. i have only just discovered for myself what is possible when you have a positive body image. 

not so exciting stuff... uhhh.

my husbands gym. i won't say too much here. but it is absolutely a struggle not having him home as much as i would like. then again, what is enough? i don't think i could ever have enough time with him. he always tells me that his clients say he needs to buy me things for valentines day or my birthday or christmas... really... gifts are nice. the thing i won't forget or won't end up in the trash though? TIME. that is the best gift anyone can give. i think we forget how valuable each one of us is! i'm loving more and more spending time with people.. if you are close to me you know that is not how i was the past few years!!! it is amazing when you realize how important people are, and how much you can learn from the people in your life. 

you know... i am excited about so many things.

i can see my future and the possibility of having everything i ever DREAMED of.

 i am changing the way i think in the morning when i wake up. instead of sleeping and having nightmares (which is mostly what it's been lately) i need to get up and make my real life happy dreams real life!!! i'm just so happy to finally be LIVING my life. loving who i am, and looking at every moment as a new opportunity.

i challenge you guys to take this on...

no matter what you were thinking the last moment, it's in the past.

your next thought or action can be whatever you want it to be. 

i love having that feeling of control.

choose to be joyful.

choose to be healthy.

when you are working towards a goal and you get off track for a day, a month or years just know that it is ok. i personally think the worst thing that you can do is feel guilty.

i've been there... done that.

realize that feeling, don't let it define you.

just know that you can choose to change.

you can be anything you want.

you can have anything you want.

and with that... i'm going to spend time with my cute husband that just got home.

xo.

morgan.