in case you forgot...

hop on over to my new blog. :) you will love it. i sure do.

NEW BLOG.

thanks so much.

xo.
morgan.

Bakery...and blog!

so you know those times that you have these thoughts in your head.
like.
hey my dream is to work in a bakery as a baker.
and you know how those dreams don't pan out sometimes?
like.
you hardly work there.
and you keep thinking that they will keep their promises of training you.

well.
that happened.

i quit last week.

i'm a lot less stressed out and i had an amazing weekend!

I know I know it's Wednesday!

But I do this thing...where I start posts and never finish them.

So that's that.

Ooh I have to say, I'm proud of tanner and I. 

We've worked out every day so far this week.

It's hard to get back into a routine when you've been out of it for so long.

I feel out of shape for sure.

You know what I love though? 

Having tanner as my coach.

We kinda coach each other and it's fun.

I love how honest i can be with him and not be judged.

Like.

I want to be strong.

And I also want to be little.

In my head I was putting a weight to what I want to look like.

I tell my clients all the time not to rely on what number the scale says... 

And there I was doing the same thing!

So we decided to track body fat percentage, take pictures and track the weights that I'm lifting.

He's so smart I tell ya. ;)

I feel like health and fitness is a never ending journey.

Which I love because it is totally mental. 

I picked up a book from the library that I started reading today.

It's about mindful yoga and meditation.

One of my goals is to learn more about yoga, and eventually be certified.

So I'll keep you up on that little journey too...

Ooh I also wanted to try a new space for my blog, it's on wordpress.

I'm just messing around with it at the moment. 

I did my first post today and I already have 3 followers...

Here is the link...

https://sprinklesandshimmer.wordpress.com

So bear with me while I get it figured out. I like the platform better so far.

And I feel like it's a better place for me to make it more of a professional thing. 

I PROMISE I will post on there everyday. :)

xo

morgan.

newness.

i know i posted something yesterday.
but hey i missed typing already.

so as some of you may know, tanner and i are using our town home as our first rental property.

we are still moving out of it and into our new apartment.

there is something about having two people that love each other in a small space.
we've been at the apartment for a week and i already feel like our love has grown stronger.
i see this quote all the time on pinterest... and its so so true.

"love grows best in little houses with fewer walls to separate. where you eat and sleep so close together you can't help but communicate. if we had more room think of all we'd miss. love grows best in little houses just like this."

tanner and i have been married for 4 years next month.

i feel like we are more in love than ever.
we wake up with gratitude.

to be so close.
to be so in love.
to be so happy.

tanner and i have been through a lot the past 5 years that we've been together.
big decisions.
buying a house.
owning a gym.
moving out of the house.
still owning the gym.
fights.
not communicating effectively.

we are finally understanding what each of us needs to feel loved.

to be honest.
i love all of the clients that he trained.
but he was giving all of his love to you guys.
which is what i love about him.

but he was so exhausted from giving everyone else his love... there wasn't any left for me.
he did what he thought was best.
worked his ass off and provided for us financially.

one thing women i feel like don't talk about is the emotional part of a relationship that they need.
i need to be needed.

there is this one look that tanner gives me now.
its like i'm the only person in the whole entire world.
its completely exhilarating.
that look makes me feel loved.
even the way we kiss is different... better.

last night it was like we were just married, i was so super excited for him to come home from work.
you could even say i was nervous.
i had butterflies.

isn't this the love and romance i have always dreamed of?
absolutely.
i am the happiest i've ever been. ever.

also.
honesty.
be true to yourself.

i never let anyone "in"
i love people yes.
but i never got too close.

thats what tanner needs.
me to let him in.
i've never loved anyone fully.
always one foot on the ground.

with him, i can finally jump in with both feet.
i'm not scared anymore.
we are in it forever.

i can be true.
i can be authentic.
i can be crazy.
i can be wild.
i can be sweet.
i can be anything i want with him.
ah.

how i got lost...
i'm not sure.
i'm just so lucky that tanner saved me.
i can fall apart in his arms and know that he will put me back together no matter how long it takes.

i'd do the same for him.
i'll be there in his darkest nights.
i'll run away with him.
i'll always find him if he ever hides.
i'll rescue him ten million times if it means that he will always be mine.

life couldn't be more perfect.

xo.
morgan.

happiness.

soo.
yes i've been MIA for a minute.
i've been evaluating my life.
what do i need to make me happy??

well i'm absolutely certain of two things.
being a wife.
being a mother.

but what else?

being financially stable i guess?
i mean really.
have you ever thought about what you need in your life to make you happy?

i know a lot of it for me...

well wait.
lets stop for a second.




i'm going to be honest here.
like real honest.
so if you want to know... keep reading.
if not... stop now.
you may look at me in a different light.
which is ok.
i am being authentic and true to who i really am.

tanner challenged me to figure out what i wanted my life to look like.

so i did.

of course if you sit down and think about it, all the material things come to mind first.

pretty house.
pretty hair.
pretty clothes.
pretty cars.

so i thought. and thought. and thought.

still i want all of those things.
but what about my day?
what do i want that to look like?
i challenge my clients to do this sometimes.

so what does it look like?

well i LOVE mornings.
i wake up before tanner. everyday.
so i imagine getting up and making breakfast and prepping the families food for the day.
i imagine getting everyones clothes all put together and ready.
then i make tea and wake tanner up with ten million kisses.
we go sit on our porch and talk.
about anything because we aren't in a hurry.

when tanner goes to work,
thats when i get my workout in.
yoga & lifting.

when our kids are little i imagine taking them to the park and discovering new things everyday.
teaching them.
loving them.
creating memories.
soaking in every moment of their littleness. :)

i'll run errands.

then. i'll come home.
sit in my office and work on my blog.
and put together a list of events that i am coordinating for people.
(this is a new thing that i'm into.)
i want to plan events.
baby showers, birthdays, weddings, bridal showers.
anything.
as long as they get to be pretty. ;)

then my cute husband will come home.
i'll greet him with ten million kisses.
(so will the kids, when we have them.)

we will make dinner together while we drink.
just a couple of drinks of course.

then we sit.
and eat dinner and catch up on the day.

maybe after we watch a movie or go on a walk.

then. after the kids are put to sleep...
we will meditate.
and have time alone.
mostly just staring into each others eyes because let me tell you i can totally get lost in tanners.


and basically thats it.
thats my day.
tanner said to me
"i feel like you want to live a princess life."

but thats the thing.
i love taking care of people.
especially the ones that i love.
so why not have it all?

i know this is super mushy and lovey but its ok.

sometimes you just need that.

basically...
i am in love with love.
and pretty little things.

we make life hard.

take a step back and think about what you really want.

dream again.

xo.
morgan.

ahhh inspiration.

hi guys!
i hope you all had an AMAZING holiday.

tanner and i were talking about our lives since we've been together.
he reminded me of something that i totally forgot about.
we would get ready to go on a date or even just go see his family..
i would stand in front of the mirror and bawl my eyes out and say how much i hated the way i looked.
nothing he said could "fix" me.
he said it always made him so sad.

i want to know.
how many of you do that?
seriously beat yourself up every day?
i did that. a lot.

i truly believe now that positive self talk is real.
it changes you.
stand in the mirror and look at your strengths.
not your weaknesses.
granted we can always improve.
but crawl in and live there.

so what changed?
i mean i still have plenty of days where my hair just isn't right or you seriously feel fat.
its a real thing.
honestly...
i started taking time for myself.
doing things that just I wanted to do.
i always had a hard time being alone.
now... its one of my favorite places to be.

i love walking outside.
its my favorite.
i love writing poetry.
i love reading.
i love pinterest ha.

i've talked to a lot of people this week about finding healthy things that also are stress relievers.
i don't think we realize how much stress plays a role in every single thing that we do.
we are too busy running to the next thing.

take some time this weekend to discover what you really enjoy.
and schedule some time for yourself everyday.
i know its easier said than done but it really will free up your mind in so many ways.

i have this client..
she is my new best friend.
seriously.
she inspires me so much.
so much so that i am firmly recommitted to my fitness goals.
i love that she sent me a picture of her doing cardio from MY gym at 6:30 this morning.
she's seriously amazing. :)
the best part is she is hilarious!
she will be famous one day.
i can hardly wait.
she already shines...
i just can't even imagine when she has all the self confidence in the world.
she will blow us all away.

i love being a health and wellness coach.
i haven't talked a bunch about herbalife lately.
mostly because i've been trying to figure out where i want to go with it.

here is the truth.
i want clients that are ready and willing to change.
not just their food...
their entire lives.
thats what being healthy is.
it really is a life change.
it isn't easy.

but i will stand right by your side if you let me.

xo.
morgan.

whoa...

sooo.
if you knew me a little over a year ago you'd say. morgan... you hate change. what are you doing?!

i've gone part time with the job that i have with my dad. which has been really bittersweet. i cried like a big baby last friday which was my last day with one of my kids.

i've started helping this cute little bakery out called CAkE its soooo freaking cute. and the cupcakes are amazing. the owners are just super sweet. go check them out. please. :)

i'm finally helping tanner at our gym. sheesh! its been long enough right??
i feel like there aren't enough hours in the day for everything that i want to do.
so i went to the mall today and handed out business cards. yes that was fun!
except... when you don't have money you seriously do find everything you could ever want in your wardrobe. so really i just left feeling kinda sad.
i mean i found the most PERFECT sports bra. that is serious!! haha.

you know i want to be a WBFF pro one day...
well reality check...
i don't want to do lingerie shoots.
i feel like fitness competitors need to be strictly fitness.
but whatever. i'll just work towards my goal. :)
which makes me super excited. i've been walking everyday and i already feel leaner.
AMAZING.

lets see...
oh i decided to put my esthetics license to use!!!
i'm going to start doing facials out of the gym.
woo hoo. that makes me soooo happy.

oh and... i am going to go to school to get certified as a yoga instructor.

so i will be one zen girl with my yoga && facials.

:)

i've decided all of this in less than a week.
sheesh.
you know what is cool though?
typically my anxiety would be THROUGH THE ROOF!
but its not.
is that a sign that i'm finally falling into place where i need to?
maybe.

i'm just so happy and i love it.
i had to share it with all of you.
make your dreams come true!!!
whats stopping you?!?

i feel like this post was ALL over the place...
just gives you a glimpse into my mind.  :)

xo.
morgan.

it's ALWAYS a journey.

so.

i'm a health and wellness coach.

we KNOW this.

i LOVE what i do.

what i love most i think is learning about our relationship with food and what it means.

i've yet to learn how to fix it.

when i have a stressful day, i always want to go on a date with tanner.

when i have a fantastic day, i want to go out with tanner.

some days... most days i don't feel like following my meal plan.

my anxiety comes back.

i eat whatever i want and don't care about my goals.

i give up my long term happiness for short term gratification.

tanner and i were talking about how we could maybe find the real problems.

the real problem..

i worry TOO dang much.

about everything.

tanner was telling me i was too obsessed with my macros and led me to this book...

basically i KNOW how to eat healthy. 

i KNOW what foods make me feel good.

so the author of this book said hey,

take a picture of what you eat and then write on a post it note how it made you feel. 

i'm over thinking of food in calories. 

i want food. 

oh and go to the farmers market! i love that idea.

so thats a new goal.

one thing i'm not on the same page with is the multivitamins.

you NEED vitamins.

no one has the time in their day to get all of their needed nutrients from just whole food. 

its impossible.

so ya.

i'm still on this whole eating food thing.

its HARD.

i want to find a way that we can make good healthy choices without even having to think about it. 

one day i guess.

its just too damn difficult to figure out if you are getting too much or not enough of something.

when i find a way i will absolutely share it. 

for now. 

stick to lean protein && fresh produce.

lots and lots of water.

and of course your multivitamins.

people think herbalife is just shakes...

nope.

it matters what you eat around your shakes.

choose foods that make you feel light and awake.

take time to eat it and enjoy it!

really feel how it makes you feel.

xo.

morgan.

book.

http://www.stumptuous.com/fuck-calories

ooh the places you will go...

So

I'm sitting here in my bed reflecting on the last month and thinking about things that I didn't... Wouldn't do. 

It all caught up to me. 

I am in the process of learning. 

 

I'm not beating myself up over it. 

I'm saying alright awesome... What worked? What didn't work?

What will I do to make this month even MORE amazing???

It's so crazy, the process of designing your own life. You'd think it would be easy... Well it's work. It's learning. 

Don't get me wrong I LOVE learning. 

But

Here's the thing. 

I started losing love for myself again.

...

That is the most valuable thing that I teach! 

I stopped fueling my body with everything that it truly needed, I completely put my workouts on hold... I even stopped taking time for me in the morning to wake up slow and at my own pace.

Why??

I'm not sure. I could give you a million and a half excuses, but those won't get me anywhere.

The best part is, I know what didn't work.

Tomorrow begins a new day... 

I will work on me again. 

I am making myself valuable.

So I can go to work for all of you guys.

I'm so excited for my clients this month.

I will be 100% honest here...

I lost some of you along the way.

I didn't take a stand for you.

You will be hearing from me. 💕

Like I said, I've learned so much.

It's not just about my herbalife business though...

I'm figuring out what I truly want my life to look like day in and day out.

I love helping people reach their goals && grow into the people they are meant to be. I'm also the happiest around my husband and well let's be honest, my cats hahaha.

But it just makes sense for me to spend more time where I am happy. :)

Some of you know that I am going part time with my current job because we had conflicting schedules with the kids. I am struggling with that... It's sooo hard leaving this boy that I have seen just about 5 days a week, every week out of the past year. I would do anything for this boy and his family. His mom is just incredible... I know she is reading this. ;) but seriously she has taught me so much and I feel like we built an awesome relationship over the past year too. I'm lucky enough to say that I can still go visit :) phew. Anyway... Now that I'm crying where was I? 

Oh ya, going part time.

I will be at our gym a lot more...

I used to call it tanners gym. But really it is our business. Oh! And he is going to be my trainer... Finally he is going to make time for me. ;)

I'm excited. There are a lot of changes happening and I'm terrified also, but it's a good thing.

I've been talking to tanner, and really all we care about is helping people lose weight and live long happy healthy lives. I'm so happy that we opened a gym and herbalife came to us! It has given me this newfound love for health and fitness that I never knew I had. My ultimate goal is to be a WBFF pro and coach other women to do competitions. I want women to understand that they are strong and beautiful. :) eating protein and lifting heavy won't make you masculine.. I mean obviously there are those that take it overboard. But I just want every woman to find their true value... I think for sooo long we have been told that we are weak. It's just not true. We hold families together. We are meant to inspire and empower each other to be the best versions of ourselves. :)

Now I know this post was kind of all over the place... But my head has been about ten million places lately and it always helps for me to write it out. Thank you for reading... I love comments. ;) let's get a discussion going! What empowers you? How do you find your value?

xo.

morgan.

where i've been.

hi loves.

so i just read an article.
it hit me super hard.
this hit me super hard.

Yes, “size zeroes” have issues with self acceptance and body image too. You won’t automatically be at home in your body when you shrink your waist—that’s not how it works.

i've been all across the spectrum of weight and loving myself.

lets start way back.

when i was in 7th grade i was in my english class, sitting in my chair. i needed something out of my back pack so i bent over and the boy next to me said "wow are you anorexic? i can see your spine through your shirt." i was so embarrassed i don't even think i responded. i remember it was a red shirt that said old navy across the front. seriously like how do i remember that? i didn't want to be friends with this boy like EVER. he never knew that he hurt me, i think still to this day he has no idea.

now ever since i was young i was ALWAYS little. 

i used to swing on my grandmas bench and we'd sing a song about "bony maroney" ... if you don't know call me and i'll sing it for you. 

not to mention every time i sat on someones lap they said "wow bony butt!!" or my favorite. "you need some fat on that skin and bones of yours."

seriously i know we didn't sing that song to hurt me and people didn't tell me that to be mean.

but i think the mere fact that i was conditioned to know that i was skinny and bony is sad. 

being skinny has been far too long associated with happiness and beauty. 

i've never really expressed the fact that i was always self conscious of my body, because people around me might get upset and think i should be grateful or something.

i remember the day i hit 100 lbs. it was my junior year in high school. i was beyond excited...

was i healthy?? NO! i ate pop tarts and fruit snacks everyday for lunch. (sorry mom) but seriously hitting 100lbs.. that was a huge mark for me!!! 

now lets fast forward to about three years later... i met my husband. 

we were working at a gym together.

i was still my little self. which is great and all... i started eating healthier finally.

enter the feeling of comfort and complete happiness.

i gained thirty pounds. when we got married i was about 130lbs.

keep in mind i didn't think i was fat by any means. 

i look at my wedding pictures and say to myself now, i looked really beautiful that day!

every bride should say that! 

... then i gained another ten pounds or so. 

again. didn't think i was fat. tanner and i didn't even really notice.

i didn't feel like myself.

granted i just turned twenty and thats when you start to "figure out life" right?

i was anxious, ridiculously sad, and most of all lost.

i didn't know why i was here or what i was supposed to do with my life. 

i tried working out more... because that is supposed to help with anxiety right?

i started eating even cleaner because i woke up every morning with a stomach ache that would last all day long. basically i was walking around high strung with stomach aches all day. doesn't that sound super fun??? i was over it. i went to the doctor and they put me on anti anxiety and anti depression medication. which was great! it started to help... i still felt lost though.

enter.. herbalife.

i know i talk a lot about the weight that i lost. which was fantastic. i gained my energy back along with it! my WHOLE body started to feel better. i feel healthy. now that... that was huge for me. i could actually function throughout the day. 

now i will be completely open and honest with you guys. 

right now i am 120lbs with 19% body fat. 

and you know what? i'm comfortable. i love everything about the skin i walk around in. 

i am not the skinniest I've ever been, nor do i have a lot of body fat on me. 

but its not about that..

its the fact that i found what works best for ME.

thats what matters. you need to be happy, you need to love yourself every single day. 

thats why i am involved in herbalife. 

it gave me the tools to find my self worth and understand how important it is to find the best you. 

now all of my clients come to me wanting to lose weight. 

its a highly emotional journey. i'm here to dig deeper, help them overcome barriers in their life. 

i love them no matter what their goals are or how many pounds they lose. as long as they are feeling happy and improving their overall health and wellness thats what makes me happy. the weight loss is just an amazing bonus. :)

so where i'm going.

like i said, i am comfortable. 

i'm finally at a point that i can love myself everyday.

i feel AMAZING.

now i want to push my body to the limit. 

thats why i will be competing. 

i want to feel even stronger than i already do.

i'm doing this for me. 

competing is my next goal. 

why stop when you are comfortable??

i'm excited to see the person i become through all of it.

i hope you will join me on my journey.

oh also, side note.

we are still trying for a baby.

so when i get pregnant it'll be a whole new adventure with my health and wellness.

:)

i want to empower you.

be the best YOU.

don't try to be anyone else.

find what makes you happy and go for it!

no matter what that means to you.

i will support you and love you.

xo.

morgan.

here is the link to that blog post. 

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/05/this-ones-for-my-skinny-sisters/

refocusing.

...

sometimes,
you have to step back and take your own advice.

...

i have told tanner time and time again that he needs to work on himself more than his business.

yes i have heard that through my personal development books.

...

so. i have noticed that my nutrition and fitness have been slipping.
and so has my business.
and our household.
and my full time job.
and my relationships.

...

uh. so with that said, last week i was sick. i got a crazy migraine and slept four days of my life away.
i also did some refocusing.

i have recommitted to my nutrition and fitness plan.

this may be a shock... but i'm human. ;)
i need accountability just like anyone else who wants to reach their goals.
so my coach called me and we came up with a plan, she talked me through everything.
did i mention i NEED her?
to be completely honest... i was feeling guilty.
so i'm back to basics.
i am being my best client.
that means... always always always. 2 shakes a day, 3 rounds of tabs and at least 120 oz of water!!!

remember that bikini competition that i wanted to train for... uh ya those things are expensive.
i still absolutely want to do one.
so i'm officially training for one in the fall. :)
if i get pregnant while training i'll just wait until after the baby.

while i'm training, what kinds of things would you guys like to see??
i want to make it fun and post recipes and maybe workouts that i do.
what do you think??

i lost 30lbs and 10 percent body fat on my herbalife nutrition program.
i'm taking it to my next level ten. which is having the body of my dreams.
i'm excited to see the results and the person i become while getting there.

i want all of you to take a minute and think of what your level ten health result is.. are you there?
if not.. what is stopping you??
i love sharing what i've found.
i love being a health and wellness coach.
i want to help everyone achieve everything that they think is possible, and then open up a whole new door of possibility!!!
i am open to help anyone and everyone.
all you have to do is ask. :)

i'm back in the game.
who wants to join me??

xo.
morgan.

life as of lately.

hi!
so that whole posting once a week thing?
ya not super great at that. ha.

oh well.
i'm here now.

so this last week was my 24th birthday. i don't have to tell you how much my life has change in the past year. you already know.. and if you don't leave a comment and i'll tell you. ;) i am just so blessed. i felt so much love from everyone. it was amazing. i felt like i was finally in the right place.
i just can't wait for the personal development that will happen this year. :)

now a little about herbalife...
i have almost 30 clients.

technically my mom will be my 30th this weekend!!! ah i'm so excited for her. this is a huge step for her overcoming some things. look out... she is going to be even more hot than she already is... and healthy. i think what i love most is that she is taking a stand for herself. thats what you do when you change your lifestyle. she discovered that her being healthy is more important than anything that any skeptical person would say to her. ah!!! i just can't wait to see her transform. :)

oh back to my clients...
so i absolutely love every single one of you. it makes me so happy hearing from you.

i don't post about this a whole bunch, but i still work my full time job as an interventionist for kids with autism. you all know these kids melt my heart. i love them so so so much. my life has been forever changed working with them.

with that said, my herbalife business is 100% PART TIME.
i block out a few hours a week to catch up with clients, attend meetings and make plans to hit my goals. before i discovered the herbalife business opportunity i really was stuck. i was so stressed out and so negative because i just couldn't see myself being the mom and wife that i wanted to eventually be. i was always worried about contributing to our household financially... so what was my answer? college of course. i value education very much... i get that from my dad. ;) i was in a constant battle of giving up my time and money to go to school, get a degree and then get a job working 40 hours a week or more. (and still paying student loans back after) i knew that i wanted to be a stay at home mom one day... and i just couldn't find the value in going back to school just to eventually stay at home and not use my degree.
enter herbalife...
it opened up so many possibilities. i could change peoples lives, help empower women. i can teach. i can be a stay at home mom. i can be a present parent. i can contribute to my family financially. we can reach all of our dreams and live the life tanner and i have only dreamed of. and the best part?! i can volunteer my time to kids with autism. i won't have to worry about the paycheck. i love that feeling. oh and last month.. i made $1200 PART TIME! all while doing what makes me happy.
this is my WHY.
the how is easy...
i'm just getting started with this thing.

ok so now that i'm bawling over here.... i'll leave you guys with that.
i have a busy saturday!
xo.
morgan.

seriously.

ok guys...
lets get one thing clear. i'm horrible at my post titles.
if you want to read it promise me you'll read it no matter what the title is. ;)

so one thing i wanted to talk about today that i feel has been very prevalent this week in everything i do is...
don't do things for you.
do it for the good of other people.
once i realized that i was here to help other people achieve happiness and self worth, everything else fell into place.
you can't do things for the money, or the recognition.
sure it's super nice... but as soon as you focus on that you lose what is really important.

one of my favorite quotes ever is from the Dalai Lama
"our prime purpose in this life is to help others. 
and if you can't help them at least don't hurt them."

i mean seriously. i wish i would have embraced that so long ago... but i believe i ran into it now for a reason. life is no longer about me. yes i have goals and absolutely i have dreams but i realized that i will not get there alone. i need as many loving and supportive people as possible and i will help everyone i can.

i always say "herbalife changed my soul."
it absolutely did. if i didn't choose to start the product and choose to build a relationship with my coach... i would still be stuck in the "how will i make as much money as i want to live a happy life" mindset. looking back, it was not even a tiny bit fun. i was MISERABLE. i couldn't figure out what i wanted to do with my life... you know why? i was focused on me, and the money.
now i wake up in the morning with a purpose, i start to think "who am i going to help today?" i LOVE that mindset. my life is so full of purpose now, i am present in every moment of everyday. that is absolutely a hard thing to learn and master.
now i'm not perfect. you know i have bad days, but then again it leads back to when i'm thinking about me and me alone.

its so crazy to think that just a few months ago i spent a weekend in this room full of people overcoming barriers and opening up my mind to possibility. i still think about it and it gives me chills. i will never forget the day that i went into our nutrition club and i felt the most broken and lost i have ever felt before. i looked at my coach and started crying, we spent some time talking and he said "you aren't broken, you are perfect for where you are right now." he invited me to some meeting that night... now of course the old me said ya i'll be there but in my head i knew that i wouldn't go... tanner pushed me to go and i also realized that there was a reason i was being pushed there. (keep in mind the past few months i was on and off different anti anxiety medications and anti depressants.) i seriously felt like something was wrong with me and i was just spiraling into this nothingness. that wasn't me.
so anyway tanner and i went to the meeting and i couldn't stop crying. somehow i knew that i was meant to be there.. i still felt crazy and broken.. but i felt like this might help me. i signed up for the landmark forum that night. it's something that i can't even explain. it changes your way of thinking. i'm finally happy and whole. i'm bawling just thinking about it right now. where would i be without it today? i don't even know.
it opened my eyes to the fact that i create everything and every experience in my life.
i choose how i feel. i know that seems so easy and i can tell people that over and over.. but you just don't fully get it until you are in this course for three whole days. let me tell you, it was an emotional roller coaster. it was worth every single second. i thank my coaches every chance i get for helping me get through the hardest time in my life. it means so much to me. i'm a different person and i love who i am being. i can truly say that.

that is why i do what i do and share what i share, in hopes that i can help you in any way possible.

xo.
morgan.

it's been too long...

i've been meaning to post something for awhile... the truth is... i just haven't had time!

tanner and i recommitted to our nutrition plan. i have to be honest, we would cheat. i LOVE pizza. he LOVES mexican food. we just couldn't avoid it for a minute there...
but we are doing a 90 day challenge... no cheating. 100% clean eating and NO cheating.
i would post our meal plans... but i have to tell you they are pretty boring. besides our amazing shakes, we have chicken, rice and greens every other meal. woo!! haha. but one thing i have noticed, our grocery bill has DROPPED a ton. i mean like $150 worth. how is that even possible??
anyway, i love that tanner and i are on the same meal plan... it makes life about ten million times easier. i can prep all of our food in less than an hour. AMAZING! it makes me happy.
so i will be posting progress pictures for you all. :)

we went to los angeles a little bit ago for Herbalife stuff. which as usual was fabulous.
tanner was able to really get clear on why he is involved in herbalife. let me tell you, it is very inspiring. that man i tell you makes me more happy to be married to him everyday.
anyway... not only did we have an amazing training, we were able to do SO many fun things while we were there. if you know tanner and i well, we do not get to go on "vacation" like ever. so thanks to herbalife we were in california.
first we went and saw my cute friend, she took us to this INCREDIBLE bakery. i forgot what it was called, but it was so good! then we went to the hollywood sign, it was such a pretty view. one thing i learned, california is pretty... but i'm positive i could not live where there is that much traffic!!! goodness. i felt like our whole trip was in the dang car. ha. we just did so many fun things, a year ago i would have never done something out of the ordinary for me... but i was doing new things!!! i tried sushi... man was it delicious...

i took my shoes off, rolled up my pants and went splashing around in the ocean... the OCEAN!!! ah it was so fun...

i think one of the best parts is... i only had an almost panic attack one time. thats really impressive for me. ;) i was positive and happy the whole time, i didn't even fully realize it until now. i love it. i can't express how much my life has changed. i'm so thankful.

i also learned a really fantastic thing from one of the speakers... he talked about getting out of a "funk"
i loved to hear that even someone so successful and so happy still has those yucky moments.
you know what he said? recognize it... and as soon as you do... write a list of what you are grateful for. seriously. it helps. i know it sounds so simple.
you know what i did? i sent it to tanner in a text. i think that helped even more.
i just remembered where i am now and what i am building and becoming. when your head is on straight, everything goes better. :) (thanks andrea for the notes.)

one thing i have been thinking about lately too is how much i love my house.
tanner and i are avid house hunters. it gets pretty bad. we know one day we want a single family home, but we always seem to get caught up and want it in this exact moment!!
i was thinking today, we have only lived in our town home for about two years... three years in july. whoa.
but i was thinking, this house really can be everything we are looking for. i mean, its a big big house.
so rather than looking at other houses i'm going to look at ways to make our house a home finally. we need to finish the basement. we will finish our office and work on the nursery. ;) i think what i'm really super excited for is our patio. it'll be so nice. we take our location for granted for sure. i mean the hoa fees are pretty ridiculous, but we do get so many things from it. so i will start posting pictures of things we work on too!!!

lots of improving will be happening this year
and i CAN'T wait.
i used to be terrified of change.
now i'm so excited i can hardly stand it.

well.. thats pretty much what has been on my mind lately.

and of course how proud i am of all of my clients. i know i know i gush a lot about them.. but one last thing... i LOVE these ladies. i love talking to them and seeing a glimmer of hope in their eyes. that is the biggest thing i can give them.
ok wait... lets back up a bit. i love my men clients too. i had one of them thank me for everything. seriously... weight loss or even weight gain is a very emotional thing. i love that i can be so connected to these people at such a crucial time in their lives. its amazing what feeling good can do for you and your whole life. i really am thankful everyday for the people who have come to me and trusted me. you guys are inspiring. i want to be the best coach i can possibly be for you guys. :)

ok ok i'm done. ;)

xo.
morgan

april goals.

last month was kind of a... fly by the seat of our pants month!

now that we are finally settling down and all the stress of the gym is figured out we can actually get on track!!!

goal number 1.

i absolutely have to get back to the gym.
i feel better when i do.
i'm happier and have a lot more drive to do things.
so that is my first priority for this month!
when you take time each day for yourself, everything else falls into place.

goal number 2.

support tanner on his own Herbalife journey.
he is doing super fantastic already, and i love that we are working towards the same thing as far as nutrition goes.

goal number 3.

set a number to hit in Herbalife and SMASH it. ;)
last month i don't even know what happened!
this month i will track everything, and we will have a financial goal to hit.
good news, i finally opened my business account so that will be a million times easier to track!

goal number 4.

get organized!
with everything.
sit down and go over bills with tanner once a week.
get back on a grocery and meal prep schedule.
catch up on cleaning.

goal number 5.

sundays, focus on just tanner.
no work (including Herbalife)
just us...
maybe even no phones if i can talk him into it!

those are my goals for the month.
now i know i talk ALOT about Herbalife and my business, i just hope that i am conveying the fact that it is such a huge part of my life because of the fact that it has changed my soul.
i know that sounds kinda crazy, but really it has.
i don't do it for the money.
i do it for the people.
the fact that i'll be able to stay home with my family is an absolutely huge dream of mine, and this is making it happen.
don't get me wrong, it is work.
you have to put in the time for sure... but it absolutely pays off.
last month tanner and i sold over $5000 worth of product.
to me that just shows how many peoples lives are better.
i also want everyone to know,
my clients change my life and help me grow every single day.
without them, i wouldn't have found my dream.

before Herbalife i was so lost, i was unsure about my direction in life. I knew i wanted to start a family soon, but i just couldn't see the possibility with tanner and i working so many hours and getting nowhere with debt. it's so upsetting to me to think back to just a few months ago, i would cry myself to sleep most nights because the only thing i knew for sure was i loved my husband and i wanted a family. i woke up most mornings and had to talk myself into being happy and ok and that we would figure things out.

because of Herbalife i now see the opportunity of financial freedom!!! that is HUGE to me. i can see us having a family, and me being able to do what i love. i was meant to be a mama. i just know that deep in my heart. i will be able to teach my kids to be happy and inspiring people and show them how important it is to enrich other peoples lives with your kindness. my heart is fluttering with happiness right now. it's overwhelming sometimes, but i can truly say that everything happens for a reason. if tanner wouldn't have opened up the gym we never would have found Heather & Aaron. if i never got a job with my dad i would still be lost and not sure about having a family. this past year has been everything from a struggle to a huge blessing. i wouldn't trade any second of it. i love every single person in my life, if we talk every day or once a year. you are important to me. your goals are important. your happiness is important. i want everyone to experience what a major change i have made in myself. i've never felt so alive and full of love. :)

xo.
morgan.

writing to write.

hello everyone.

so this past weekend was actually pretty fantastic. my husbands friend and his cute wife came to stay with us. they are too sweet. :) its been fun catching up with them.

saturday was a really good day.
i went to my herbalife meeting.
the biggest thing i took away from it is
"my dreams are non-negotiable"
i will do anything i need to do to get there.

i was able to catch up with one of my dear friends.
she has always been my inspiration.
she is so creative and so sweet.
its safe to say she is the kindest most genuine person i have ever met.
obviously i won't go into too much detail but she is going through a hard time at the moment.
it made me realize just how important she really is to me. even though we don't see each other or talk to each other every day she really is a sister to me.
when her heart aches, my heart aches.
i want nothing more than for her to be happy.
a few months ago i was the most flakey friend on the entire planet..
then i realized i want people to count on me.
i want people to know that i will ALWAYS be there when i say i'm going to.
its so important to me to motivate and support other people.
i've learned that you are in the perfect place right now because it is part of your story.
without it, who would you be?
everything happens to make us stronger better people.
i always talk about empowering women... which i really love to do.
women are SO powerful.
women are SO beautiful.
we can get through ANYTHING.

now with that said..
i couldn't be as strong as i am today without a couple of key men in my life.

my dad. he has always pushed me to challenge myself and be the best i can be.
i've learned so much from him over the years.

my husband. he is everything i ever could have wanted in a husband. he supports me with everything that i do.. you all know that. but he doesn't ever give up on me. i do have to say that lately i have been coaching him to be better as far as our dreams and goals go, which is totally different than how it used to be! i love that he is way more open to it then i was when he was coaching me! ha.
he finally got started on his herbalife program about three days ago. he is being consistent!!! woo hoo. he was telling me yesterday how happy he was... and this was the first sunday in i don't know how long that we didn't take a nap!!! that made me sooooo happy. sundays are our only days together, and the fact that we were awake for all of it was AMAZING. he's had even more drive and focus the past few days. i have my husband back. :) i'm loving it.

so a little side track here...
i'm on Facebook connecting with new people.

i can't tell you how many women just want to be happy and love their body.
i can't tell you how important it is to me to have a happy loving relationship with the mirror. that alone is empowering!!!
i want to share this feeling with every woman that i possibly can.
we need to change the image of "perfect" in our head.
please if you struggle at all... let me help you! let me show you how to love your body.
you are all INCREDIBLE.

xo.
morgan.

mondays... yuck!

remember how i said that you were going to hear about my rough days?? well this was one of them. honestly i woke up with no smile on my face, i didn't want to get out of bed and i waited until the last minute to do so. did that help me at all? NOPE! did i learn my lesson? YES.

now i'm not going to spend my whole post about being grumpy all day. what i will say is it was just a bad monday. it happens to the best of us.

so what am i going to do about it???

first.
tomorrow i'm going to get my butt out of bed and go to the GYM. seriously whenever i am stressed, lost, upset, tired, or whatever.... i need to go to the gym. it changes your entire day.

second.
i'm going to eat an awesome breakfast!!!
really i need to take time for myself in the morning.
today was proof that i need that time!

third.
personal development.
get my head on straight and feel thankful for everything i have coming my way.

fourth.
take my time getting ready for the day. i love drying my hair and putting make up on. it just makes my day that much better.

and fifth.
plan out my food. :) i get grumpier when i am hungry and not prepared.

i share all of this with you guys so you understand that we all have our days... and there is ALWAYS tomorrow. or even the next moment.
don't feel guilty because you didn't work out or you didn't prepare your food for the day.
just move on and know that you have tomorrow. :) just don't make saying tomorrow a habit.

ok positive note...
i am officially going to california next weekend for Herbalife. its a Leadership Development Weekend. yes i am excited... also i am nervous to leave tanner at home with his friend who will be staying with us for a month or so. ha! i just hope the kitties and the house is still intact when i get home. ;)
i will be sure to take lots of pictures and you will hear a whole bunch about it!

ummm one last thing.
i'm thankful for everything i have. even if i had a rough monday... it was still another monday that i had. i have my house, my husband, my family, my herbafam, my clients and my life.
everything is perfect the way it is right now. it was meant to be this way today. and i'm totally ok with that. thats all.

xo.
morgan.

euphoria.

hi loves.

it's officially official. saturdays are my favorite day of the whole week. it's when i organize, get even more focused and reflect.

i know i know it's sunday. sundays are for basically being lazy. i watched movies with the hubs all day in bed.

but saturdays...

i have my own happy little schedule.
i clean the house.
go through client things.
reflect on what i did the week before.
recommit to my dreams... and maybe dream some new ones.

this last saturday though, i was at an Herbalife event.
it's called an STS (success training seminar)
i'm just going to be totally 100% honest, by the end of friday night i want to be lazy all weekend.
so i told myself "morgan you always love going to be with your herbafam, wake up and know that you will love it."
well #duh.

it was AMAZING.
i've worked so hard this past month.
putting in the work and loving it.
&& boy did i get recognized for it.
i was the 1st retailer.
(meaning i got the most clients in feb.)
i am a new supervisor.
(meaning i gave myself an 8% raise.)
i reconfirmed my why.
i set new goals.
i met new lovely people.

... on a side note...
i've given myself a 25% raise since june... seriously who can do that? oh ya, i did. thanks to Herbalife.

ok...
now i want you all to know how incredibly humbled i am.
i got there yesterday and let me tell you. you are always welcomed with open arms.
i LOVE LOVE LOVE all of the warm hugs i get from everyone.
i also love that i make new best friends every time i go to an event.
i have told you guys that i am a health and wellness coach because i absolutely love empowering women to be who they are meant to be and have love for themselves.
what i didn't realize until yesterday...
i open the door of possibility to so many people by doing what i do everyday.
i'm inspiring.
what?!
that's weird to say.
but really... i love it.
because of me someone else will be pushing harder this month to get the recognition i got.
because of me someone else will be enjoying the happiness and love that this family gives you.
guys... if you aren't involved by now... what are you waiting for?!?
i've never been in a room full of so many happy people looking to be even better for other people.
i'm in the business of helping people feel the best they can.

one of the things that hit me yesterday was think of every stranger as your next best friend.
if you know me... you know i had a difficult time talking to people.
now its nothing, i can't wait to get out and meet my next best friend. :)
also, i care about other people. i used to be so selfish, honestly someone would be telling me a story and i would be thinking about something else. RUDE HUH?
now i am present. if i am in a conversation... i'm in the conversation giving it my best listening ears.
you know what happens when you are actually in the moment?? you learn about the other person.
building relationships is my new favorite thing. even my current relationships have gotten so much better since i have been present and listening.
oh and another thing... all of this... i couldn't do it alone. i have my absolutely amazing coaches to guide me. my husband to support me. all of my clients who trust me. my family for believing in me. but most importantly i have everyone in Herbalife to turn to if i ever had a bad day. i'm forever thankful for the relationships that i have built so far with these positive and uplifting people.

ok guys.
i feel like i am missing the whole point as to why i was posting today.
i am challenging you.
if you don't know already, look up the definition of the word euphoria.
it is my FAVORITE word.
memorize it.
LIVE IT.
i will be going through this same challenge this week.
be in the moment. live life in euphoria.
what are we waiting for? all we have is now.

now go out and meet your next best friend.

xo.
morgan.

is this real life??

so.
i'm not going to share this with you guys to brag or impress you.
i'm going to share this to impress upon you, that you can do and achieve anything.

as many of you know my herbalife business has been exploding. i'm so lucky... i'm going to be very honest here... [grandmas there is no need to be worried] ;) tanner and i were behind with our finances.
it happens when you pay a ridiculous amount in HOA fees. its life right? we all have to go through it.
i'm so thankful for not only herbalife but all of my coaches and clients for playing a huge part in getting us back on track, and then some!

i was so excited, today i bought a whole new bed set [pictures are coming] but i wouldn't have been able to buy that if it wasn't for herbalife. believe me, we have needed one for awhile!! our doggie ate a big hole in the comforter, and he ralphed on the last one. ha. so yes it was time for new stuff!

i will tell you time and time again how much i love connecting with these people and changing their lives.

i do have to say this week was HARD! i had my first full week of my full time job in awhile, plus about 6 clients starting weight loss programs this week. i was quite unorganized!! && exhausted by friday afternoon. but you know what?? i loved every minute of it. i haven't talked a whole lot about my job during the day. i do in home intervention with kids who have autism. let me tell you, those kids melt your heart. i seriously tear up at least three times a week when i work with them. i love teaching them a concept or behavior and when they don't need to be prompted to do it i swell up with happiness. i also get overwhelmed with the feeling of being so proud of these kids. i have worked with one boy for about a year now, on friday we were playing with blocks and he stacked them up like he was a pro! a year ago... he couldn't stack them at all. i just love the little things like that. i love being a part of these kids lives. don't get me wrong, it is tough work. i have bruises everywhere... but not just from them hitting or kicking. when we read books they put their feet on me, sometimes they push me and we play.. but the bruises are worth it. :)
i absolutely feel grateful for this job. i've mentioned before that it made me realize that i want to have kids of my own, and that i want to stay home with them. i can't wait to see them grow and learn.
everyone already knows how excited i am to have babies... so we don't have to go into that again.
although i will say i was at target and saw an old friend and her cute daughter and i almost stole her. [just kidding] but really she was adorable.

.... oh also i finally saw frozen. did we buy it? you bet we did. i love little kids movies more than grown up people movies haha. i've already seen it about three times. you bet i am going to be elsa for halloween, just like every girl in the whole nation. ;)

off to make my new bed. yay!

xo.
morgan.

my crazy brain.

hi lovelies!!

seriously... when you start thinking about trying for a baby your mind is 100% on preparing for a baby.

we may not even get pregnant right away!

but i feel like everywhere i go i see the cutest babies in the cutest strollers and the cutest mamas with the cutest diaper bags. ha! i mean really, i never NEVER thought i would be obsessed. ooooh but i am. i even started a board on pinterest called //baby. sheesh! i can't get enough. is every woman this way?? 

also i love that the "planning and organizing" side of me kicks in too. 

i planned out how to pay off all of our credit cards in a matter of months. thanks to herbalife.

plus we decided we want to go on a vacation just us two before i get pregnant. ;) so i figured out how to pay for that also. i love that i have the opportunity to plan my finances rather than say, oh i'll get this much on this paycheck... i choose how much i can make in a day. i love it. 

oh back to the vacation thing. tanner and i are wanting to go to a resort somewhere warm. ha. any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. :)

i'm just so happy. life is so fun. even if we have little hiccups along the way... thats life! and if we didn't what would we learn from??

i'm one that when i decide on something, i get SUPER anxious. so guess who wants all of her cards paid off this month? i do. guess who wants to be pregnant like yesterday? i do.

i have to force myself to sleep at night... my dreams are seriously my reality so why sleep??

(besides that i take this amazing product called sleep now that helps when my mind just won't calm down... and if i wake up a zombie you better believe i'm doing tea shots!)

i love that i can see how amazing my near future is going to be. :) 

i love that i can look into my husbands eyes when i ask him if he is ready to be a dad and see little shimmers of happiness. 

i love going upstairs and imagining a nursery there soon.

i even love thinking of how my kitties will react to the tiny human.

ah my heart is exploding.

anyways... i have so many people to recognize and appreciate.

mainly all of my clients and soon to be clients for making my dreams possible. 

i'm totally crying right now. 

i love changing peoples lives and i love being such a big part of teaching people healthy habits and to love themselves..

i could also go on and on about how many interactions i have had with my lovely clients.

i won't get into that now. but seriously if you could read my text messages you'd be crying to.

my number one thing is being an inspiration.

guys i have to be honest and vulnerable here for a minute...

i've missed about two weeks of the gym. i can blame it on being sick, but i won't. 

i just got lazy. (baby things on Pinterest can take up a lot of time ok?)

but i'm just letting you guys know that everyone has times that they get behind, or life happens! i even got to the point that all of my inspiring instagram girls that i follow were getting on my nerves because they were doing everything they were supposed to and getting results. i was like "stop being so awesome!!!" haha.

but seriously i will be getting up in the morning to go to the gym. ;)

i will be a happier person because of it. 

when you find yourself working towards your goals, you really feel like you can accomplish anything. and if that doesn't make you happy.. well you may need to reevaluate. ;)

anyway. i love you all. 

thank you for making my dreams come true. 

i cannot take all the credit for where i am now. :) all of the people in my life are so amazing and supportive.

 

off to look at Pinterest. :)

xo.

morgan.

one thing you should know...

... I change my mind. A lot.

Ask anyone! 

I get really excited about something one minute, then my brain catches up and says "wait silly, let's think about this"

As you know, my ultimate goal is to be home with my kids when we have kids.

Uhhh if I'm in a salon building a clientele all day, I sure won't be at home with my kids.

So first off... I LOVE being a health coach. It's my new favorite thing. I love sharing what I have found makes me happy with other people. If I can change one persons life, I'm so incredibly happy.

I'm so thankful for a company that allows me to do that!! && I can work from home. It's amazing!!! So hello morgan... If you already love this, why are you trying to find other things?? I guess I like a challenge. Doing hair again would absolutely be a challenge for me! In school I wanted to quit all the time. I hated it, I'll tell you one thing I loved though. Esthetics! I loved facials and waxing. So again, I can build a little spa in my basement and be home with my kids.. Oh and... I can use my amazing herbalife skin products. :) woot woot!

I do want to learn eyelash and hair extensions. So I will put that on my list.

But guys... I have to tell you...

I'm so lucky to have a husband that supports me with absolutely every decision I make. He knows how important it is for me to be happy with what I do. I love that we have the same goals. I love that no matter how crazy I am he will always be there to support me.

We were talking a lot last night, and...

We are going to start trying for a baby soon!!! WHAT?!? 

I'm so excited I couldn't even sleep all night, mostly because I can't wait to see how great of a father tanner will be.

Do I know how we are going to make it all work? Nope! But we can figure it out. We have an amazing supportive family that will be there for us to help. I never thought i would be this excited to try for a tiny human. Don't worry... I won't change my mind about this one. ;) 

I'm speechless... Like really we are going to start a whole new chapter of our lives, tanner and I have been together for just about 5 years now. I'd say if there was a time to be ready, it would be now. My heart is EXPLODING with happiness. :)

In the meantime I'm going to work on finishing my office space upstairs... It's going to look like this...

Cute huh?? Ah I have so many exciting things to do... Better get this day started!!! 

LOVE YOU ALL!! 

Have an awesome Friday. 

xo.

morgan.

grown up??

so as some of you know i have been at home in bed for the past two days.

let me tell you. it is rough stuff ha.

if i wasn't feeling like death it would be ok.

but i am...

so it sucks.

the good news though? 

i can think about everything that i want to accomplish and what i need to do.

i'm organizing my thoughts i guess!

and this is where it gets personal... i'm warning you. ;)

since i was younger i have had issues with ovarian cysts. 

i know its a pretty common thing, but when one of those bad boys ruptures...

OUCH! 

i'm stuck trying not to cry or cut myself open to rip out my stupid ovaries haha.

i finally got into the doctor today.

i haven't been to an actual ob/gyn in like three years, i would just go to my little clinic for check ups.

don't do that... just always find a good doctor.

anyways we talked about all of my health issues as of late and he said i basically have endometriosis.

i'm shocked... not.

my family has a long history of fun female problems ha.

so basically i've been on birth control for like ever to help my girl stuff.

it hasn't worked.

well he said i could have the surgery to see if i for sure have endometriosis, to that i said 

"and if i do what are the treatments?"

he said

"birth control which you have been on, or you can try getting pregnant!"

the voice in my head said "oh our family would love that!"

i laughed and said "well we will get there when we get there!"

for the meantime he gave me this prescription that is made specifically to help cramping and endometriosis like symptoms. 

so we will see if that works!

anyways...

i've been secretly wanting a baby for a while now.

it's not a secret anymore!

but here is my thing. 

i feel like tanner and i are so young and we still have so much to figure out...

how do we know when we are ready??

do we know??

if we keep waiting will we be waiting the rest of our lives??

honestly money is tight right now (personal again sorry)

we are working towards finding what works for us financially!

right now tanner is trying to figure out his three jobs,

and i want to start hair again, work part time with my dad and continue being a wellness coach!

can we do everything?

i watched my parents, and they sure figured it out.

but man growing up scares me!!!

i thought i would feel like an adult when we signed papers for our first house,

nope! i did feel grown up... but not anything crazy!

then i started thinking seriously about being a mama.

if that doesn't make you feel grown up i don't know what does!

i'm not scared of being a mom at all. 

i am terrified of being pregnant though!

the whole thing is scary.

i used to be a very anxious person, don't get me wrong i still worry a lot! 

so i just get so scared thinking about waiting for my baby to come out and it overwhelms me haha.

i just want some opinions from you mamas and soon to be mamas.

how do you make it work?

financially.

emotionally.

physically.

i'm most worried about the financial part!

any and all advice is appreciated. 

thank you guys again for reading and showing interest.

it means the WORLD to me.

xo.

morgan.

dreams.

hi.

thanks for stopping by, as usual.  :)

this week i have done A LOT of reflecting.

on my marriage, on our work choices, on our goals.

&& lets just say we have some learning to do.

like i said, i'm just now figuring out who i am and what i want.

i realized today, that 17 year old me knew what i ultimately wanted when i decided to go to hair school.

i always knew that when i had kids i wanted to be home with them as much as i could!

i've always been creative and artistic.

i've always loved making people happy.

&& more recently i've discovered i love making women feel like they are beautiful.

i started talking to one of my moms cute hairdresser friends, she recently got on herbalife and we have been talking a lot. she inspired me to try doing hair again. 

when i first got out of hair school, about 4 years ago, i threw myself into a salon. 

IT WAS AWFUL.

i didn't know what i was doing.

i didn't have all of the product i needed.

doing hair gave me crazy anxiety.

i didn't have the patience to sit and wait for people to come in.

so i lasted a whole 2 weeks. woo!!!

i firmly believe that everything leads you to something else for a reason. 

i decided to put off my master esthetics schooling in order to work at Peerless Beauty Supply.

i did not love working retail... but i loved that job. 

i learned more there than i ever did in school. 

all day long i did color correction for other stylists.

i loved the product. 

i can sell hair product all day... it is amazing stuff. ;)

then i got this amazing job with my dad.

it has taught me so many things.

i'm loving learning the way kids develop, but not only that i love learning about behavior and what motivates us to do what we do every single second of everyday. 

it taught me that i really LOVE kids. 

i really want kids of my own. 

it also has given me a newfound appreciation for every mom out there. 

you guys are SUPER HEROS.

seriously.

HERBALIFE changed my life. 

you all know that by now. 

i have learned how to coach people and truly care about them and their goals.

i am learning how to build my own business.

personal development is a huge thing with them... and ask my husband... i was always against it and thought it was silly.

i've learned to live in the moment.

i still have goals and dreams, but i am enjoying every second of my life now.

i'm no longer depressed or anxious.

i have a new found confidence, i never knew what that felt like.

i have my support system to thank for that.

i finally know how to open up.. and let people in.

i'm a positive person.

building new relationships make me happy!

i believe all of this has led me to figure out what i really want in life.

i will be home with my kids as much as possible.

i will contribute to our household finances pretty significantly.

i will make my own schedule and build new relationships.

i will use my creativity every day.

i will use my product knowledge and further my education.

i will empower women, not only make them feel beautiful.. but be the one to make them even more beautiful.

i'm SO excited about this new adventure that i will be starting.

i know so much now.

i have so many people to thank that have led me to where i am now.

you all are so amazing.

so now off to start looking into product lines. woot woot!!!

love you all.

xo.

morgan.

p.s check out 

http://www.amberrobertsmusic.com/music.html

she is one of my dear friends... i know i have mentioned her before... but if you haven't listened to her yet please do!!! :)

marriage.

so. tanner and i have been married for almost 4 years.

we've been lucky.

we don't fight, like ever.

except like once a year.

 & even then it isn't really a fight..

we don't yell or scream.

we talk calmly about how we are feeling.

like i said i'm lucky.

tanner and i are very respectful of one another and our opinions.

if we disagree on some political issue or other we at least say ok i can see where you are coming from, but i don't agree and thats totally ok.

other times it is a "babe you really hurt me by doing blah blah blah" discussions.

we had one of those on saturday night.

i won't go into details.

but i will say i love that we can talk and talk and talk until we both feel better.

 tanner is still getting used to the person i have become in the past few months.

if he was going to a friends house and wanted me to meet him there i would have absolutely said no... six months ago. 

i'm still getting used to who i am!

i used to shut down when i got hurt, rather than talk about it i would cry myself to sleep and be mad the whole next day because he didn't pick up on me being upset.

ugh. that wasn't fun.

i finally figured out... hey genius he isn't a mind reader! if you don't tell him how you feel it won't ever change. sheesh. easy right? well i didn't figure that out right away. sometimes it is harder than you expect, but easier in the long run.

being married is so amazing... and so different.

i love being able to grow and pursue my dreams.

i know tanner will always have my back and push me to what makes me happy.

i love that our goals are the same on the important things.

i love who we make each other.

i love that we can talk.

we have great communication. 

really i think that is what makes a marriage so great.

he is absolutely my best friend, i can tell him everything and anything...

and he will still be there in the morning.

a few of you know what is happening in our personal life with the gym and not being able to spend time together, and finances. ya know the usual grown up stuff..

i didn't realize how much we take out on each other. and thats soooo not fair.

anyways... my point is always be open and honest with your husband or wife.

realize that what stresses you out, stresses them out too.

know that you need to lift them up and trust that everything will work out the way it is supposed to.

don't keep saying one day or someday...

someday is now.

that is all we have.

appreciate every single moment in the moment with your love.

that is all for now... 

xo.

morgan.

oh p.s tanner isn't sticking to his new years resolution. ;)

who cares?!

hi again!!!

so here is what i discovered today.

1. i LOVE talking. 

2. i LOVE writing.

3. i am SUPER busy and i LOVE it.

4. i am EXCITED about well.. everything.

you already know how much i love the people in my life.

well i also love the relationships i have been able to build and rekindle throughout the past 6 months or so. here is the thing, i just decided i was SICK of hiding. i was hiding everything, i didn't have a voice! i wasn't being authentic with the people in my life. i felt like everyone would judge me... and i realized... WHO CARES?! no matter what you do people are going to judge you. i'm totally ok with it.. because really i want to be happy!!! so do what makes you happy!!

i am happy when i am able to share with other people what i have been learning about myself and my views on the world.  you know what is great? you can take it or leave it. i'm TOTALLY ok with that, and i will LOVE you for who you are anyways.

one of my cute friends said she loves how positive i always am. i do absolutely try to be positive 98% of the time. i used to be a complainer... and man was that a DRAG! ha. 

but i also think that all of us are 100% human and we will have our down days. 

thats totally ok too... so i want you guys to see some of my not so positive days also, i will be sure to write about them. if you don't like it, too bad so sad. ;)

ok... so let's be honest. i have a lot on my plate at the moment.

a lot of GOOD things. i have my job working with kids, they are amazing and seriously so sweet. its challenging don't get me wrong. that is absolutely what i needed in a job in order to be fulfilled. some days it isn't all coloring hello kitty and rainbows! i have really hard days, where they can scream in my face for up to 45 minutes. you know what? it is ok, i get through it and it is a teaching opportunity. i'm extremely thankful for this job everyday. as hard and mentally draining as it is, knowing that i am CHANGING these families lives is totally worth every minute.

i also started selling herbalife more. i am loving coaching adults. so far all of my clients are women. i LOVE empowering them to be the super heroes that they are. these women are so strong and amazing, they don't even realize it yet. i love seeing their results. not just the weight loss, but the growth as a person. there is something about empowering women that makes me SO happy. i have only just discovered for myself what is possible when you have a positive body image. 

not so exciting stuff... uhhh.

my husbands gym. i won't say too much here. but it is absolutely a struggle not having him home as much as i would like. then again, what is enough? i don't think i could ever have enough time with him. he always tells me that his clients say he needs to buy me things for valentines day or my birthday or christmas... really... gifts are nice. the thing i won't forget or won't end up in the trash though? TIME. that is the best gift anyone can give. i think we forget how valuable each one of us is! i'm loving more and more spending time with people.. if you are close to me you know that is not how i was the past few years!!! it is amazing when you realize how important people are, and how much you can learn from the people in your life. 

you know... i am excited about so many things.

i can see my future and the possibility of having everything i ever DREAMED of.

 i am changing the way i think in the morning when i wake up. instead of sleeping and having nightmares (which is mostly what it's been lately) i need to get up and make my real life happy dreams real life!!! i'm just so happy to finally be LIVING my life. loving who i am, and looking at every moment as a new opportunity.

i challenge you guys to take this on...

no matter what you were thinking the last moment, it's in the past.

your next thought or action can be whatever you want it to be. 

i love having that feeling of control.

choose to be joyful.

choose to be healthy.

when you are working towards a goal and you get off track for a day, a month or years just know that it is ok. i personally think the worst thing that you can do is feel guilty.

i've been there... done that.

realize that feeling, don't let it define you.

just know that you can choose to change.

you can be anything you want.

you can have anything you want.

and with that... i'm going to spend time with my cute husband that just got home.

xo.

morgan.